Yeah, I just thought that I'd update. It will now be my goal to update at least twice a month... Well, grades came back and they weren't as bad as I thought they might be and was relieved to say the least. However not long after I found out my good news, I was pulled over for speeding at 12:30 in the morning. My mother upon finding this out was not pleased to say the least but she got over it since I am paying for it anyway. Anyway some cop pulled me over and asked the 'usual' questions. "License, registration?" Well when he saw my license he started to make a big fuss, " You live in Charleston Circle? As in..." I didn't understand what he was babbling about so I turned to him and said, " I don't know what you're talking about...." and I told him my neighborhood and he walked back to his cop car and I sat their bored. Well on the inside of my car it was pretty warm and was contrasted nicely with cold outside that had frosted my windows moments ago. My thoughts wandered and I was somewhat aware of my surroundings... I thought about how Bryson always said that girls had it easy whenever it came to cops. 'If only I could cry right now.' I mused, chuckling to myself as I looked to my right to see a cop standing just outside my window; I looked further to see that two cop cars were on the scene. 'Wow, the cops in this town are SO bored aren't they. It takes two cops to pull over a speeder and a girl for that matter.' I stared at the cop outside my window and became so curious as to what the heck he was doing just standing around outside my frickin' car. So... I rolled down my window."Umm... excuse me but what are you doing?"
"Oh, just watching you." Something about how he said it creeped me out or maybe it was really what he said, okay maybe both.
"Oh." I said definately creeped out and rolled up my window on his side. I ingored the fact that he was their the rest of the time and bantered with myself in my head about how they had to watch me when they had my lisence and I'm obviously not going to leave. 'Watch out for those fast women.' they were probably thinking or some crap like that anyway I got a ticket after he frickin' took forever and tried to make conversation.
On another topic, the other day I was sitting in a guy friend's car and we were talking about how messed up a situation we were in and I couldn't help but laugh because it was so rediculous that Shakespeare himself couldn't write it better.... anyway, told said guy friend that I'd always liked the tragic side-character/heroine Eponnine better than her counter-part Coesette the Romantic Heroine who marries Marius. Well, needless to say that there was a love triangle between the three of them. Eponnine loves Marius who love Coesette who returns his love; despite knowing that Marius loves another woman, Eponnine daydreams by a riverside about a romantic rendezvous but wakes up from her dreams knowing he doesn't love her. She somehow is strong enough (or weak enough depending on your point of view) that she doesn't care that he doesn't love her and goes to see him on the battlefield disguised as a boy. (This is after she delivers a letter to Coesette.) Well, after Eponnine clims the barracks she finds Marius who scolds her for coming but then discovers that she has been mortally wounded. He holds her as she lays bleeding in his arms, she tells him not to worry about her and insures him that she feels no pain and that all she cares about is that he is there for her in the moment. Marius is grieved that she is dying but can only stay with her until she is "sleeping". I always seemed to relate to her... in Nightwish's 'Swan Heart' it was put something like this... "Never the famous balcony scene, just a dying faith, on a heaven's gate..." Well, I suppose most of you think that I shouldn't be so negative and that I should hope but I'm afraid if I do that that I'll end up like the tin soldier whose heart was left in the ashes... but part of me still dares to hope that something might go right, I just haven't had much luck as of late and I feel painfully inept.
Today was an emotionally exhausting day, it was the last day of exams and the library claimed that I had a fine. Well, I had already driven home so I had to waste gas to go back to school. Yes, waste I'll get to that part in a second. So I go back to pay my fine and it was two dollars. "Hm. I said to myself I only checked out one book, so I don't see how this is possible. I also distinctly remember asking a friend of mine who works at our school's library if I had any fines; she said no." They gave me my "recipt" back and I looked over it. It had a bunch of books about insects and so I thought to myself, "Well, someone must like insects but it's not me..."So. I told them that none of the books were my responsibility and they took the fine off my account and gave me my money back. Well that was a good side story but not the whole reason why I'm so tired right now... and I don't feel like disclosing all the information to you guys online so... another time.
And this I know is my first post in awhile and I apologize I've been dreadfully busy. And also please excuse me if this post in fact sucks. Well, guess it's kind of like writing in journal... so maybe this will help me somewhat with my writing skills because keeping a journal tends to help most writers but to be honest I feel a bit lost in life. I haven't really had any sort of goal as to what I want to be when I 'grow up'. I honestly don't think that I ever wanted to grow up or ever thought that I would get this far. I always seemed to think that the apocalypse or something would happen or I'd get killed of or something. (Morbid isn't it?) Well, I guess all I can do is live for now and just be, because I can't fret about the past the future and the now are all that I can think about. And so my friends I bid you adieu because I think I've rambled on enough. And for those of you whom I promised a poem of my own construction on said theme I am quiet sorry I'll get to work on it when I'm not so tired; it'll be goodd practice for me.
Okay so I'm not going to post lyrics this time many of you will rejoice I'm sure. Anyway time at Belhaven has caused some change within me... I have many warm acquaintances and some new friends there to speak of, however I haven't forgotten any of my old friends. Leaving any of them completely would cause me pain but at the same time I get the feeling that I might not be able to keep up all of my relationships like I'd want... A guy once told me"Don't take friendship so seriously, because friends come and go. In the end all you have is yourself." I disagreed strongly with him at first but now, I can't help but think that there might be some truth with what he said and at the same time I bitterly disagree with him still.
Well next topic. I was discussing with a friend the other day, the problem of knowing what love is and the problem of love. (When I say problem I don't mean it in the literal way, if you get my meaning) Well, I'm still not terribly sure what love is though I believe I have some clarity. Well what I really have to confess to you guys is that I'm a coward. Yes, you see I was watching a video on youtube, of all places, and thought I was seeing a reflection of myself. The video is about a girl named Amelie and her friend an old painter. The painter sits down and faces a painting of various people, he notes that there is one character in his painting that he can never quite figure out, even after so many years. He notes that this is a girl inside the party, at the very center even but she somehow seems to be so far away from it all. He assess that she is some how different from everyone else. He asks"How different?" Amelie shrugs and says she doesn't know. The painter guesses, "Maybe she's thinking of someone. A young man she saw some place else. A love at first sight." Amelie parallels this to her own life (in her mind) and thinks of a man she met once... the man she calls her "Cinderella boy" The painter continues," She feels they are the same. The two of them." Amelie replies,"But she doesn't even know him." The painter insists that she does "since forever... in her dreams!(Amelie smiles) ...a whisper in her ears... (Okay this bits pretty cheesey) ... the feel of his touch." You see that Amelie begins to search for the man. Amelie finally asks "The boy she met...did she meet him again?" The painter tells her that she did not and Amelie is sad and begins to cry. The painter explains, "I think, she's a bit of a coward. That's why I have trouble with her eyes." The painter looks at Amelie," It's time to take some real risks!" Amelie understands and eventually finds the man... Okay that was a bit long. Well, I guess what I learned was that I have to take risks in relationships in order to get what I want. I don't want the perfect person to pass me by... I have to fight all my cowardice now and face what I have to do.
by The Benjamin Gate
If I close my eyes I can still see
This night be light to me
Twist and turn in my weak soul
Search for Your coal to burn me
Nightglow, Nightglow
Nightglow, Nightglow
Though my eyes are tight
In a promise sealed
Your spirit sees for me
And I take Your hand my heart is Yours
To wonder in this land
Because of Your nightglow
I can see Your nightglow
It seems that I've fallen into the habit of posting lyrics or poems and the occasional rant or snide comment... well this isn't a song by Nightwish (some of you might be glad to know... ) It's a song by The Benjamin Gate called Rush... please excuse the fact that a small bit of the lyrics are missing, my apollogies... I'm afraid that I couldn't find it... Oh, and the Pslam that I put at the bottom is actually a part of the song.
Rush
I feel it in my fingers
Feel it rushing down my spine
Your love feeding life around me
Cleansing my sick mind
Your grace, Your grace
Your grace, Your grace
Oh, Jesus, Oh Jesus
I feel Your fire inside me
Feel it rushing through my blood
Your love breaking lies that bind me
A revolution deep in love
Come put Your head up in my heart
Come put Your head up
Come put Your head up in my heart
My heart, my heart
Oh, Jesus, Oh Jesus
Blessed is the man who doesn't walk in the counsil of the wicked
Nor stand in the way of sinners
Nor sit in the seat of mockers
For his delight is in the law of the Lord On this law he meditates day and night
Whatever he does he prospers (Pslam 1:1)
Okay... this is actually a poem that I have recently written... I think it's pretty good, I guess.... I don't know how I'll feel about it in a month though. 'Cause right now, I'm trying to rewrite another poem of mine and it's frustrating mostly because I don't really think the rough draft is that great and I have an idea it's just taking a long while to come out.... Oh, well... this is actually a rough draft as well so, be nice.
Wedding Farewells
The sun sets on
Lilac and white bouqets
And ribbons hanging on
Delicate arms.
She stands beside him,
On his tall ship
Wrapped in white with her veil
Floating behind her
In the salty breeze.
Leaning over the rails
They shout their farewells
To the smiling wedding party
And her tearful father.
Into the misty breeze
The newlywed embark;
On a green sea sparkling
Red and golden shards
Left by the withering sun.
Okay not quite so long as the last... but it's a ten mintue long song.... mef, anyway this is the closetest thing you'll probably get to a love song by Nightwish.
We used to swim the same moonlight waters
Oceans away from the wakeful day
- My fall will be for you -
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I will bleed forever
Scent of the sea before the waking of the world
Brings me to thee
Into the blue memory
- My fall will be for you -
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I will bleed forever
Into the blue memory
A siren from the deep came to me
Sang my name my longing
Still I write my songs about that dream of mine
Worth everything I may ever be
The Child will be born again
That siren carried him to me
First of them true loves
Singing on the shoulders of an angel
Without care for love 'n loss
Bring me home or leave me be
My love in the dark heart of the night
I have lost the path before me
The one behind will lead me
Take me
Cure me
Kill me
Bring me home
Every way
Every day
Just another loop in the hangman's noose
Take me, cure me, kill me, bring me home
Every way, every day
I keep on watching us sleep
Relive the old sin of Adam and Eve
Of you and me
Forgive the adoring beast
Redeem me into childhood
Show me myself without the shell
Like the advent of May
I`ll be there when you say
Time to never hold our love
- My fall will be for you -
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
You were the one to cut me
So I'll bleed forever
Yeah, I didn't realize how many parts this song had till I looked it up. Anyway this is from the musical RENT. Okay characters: Mimi- an exotic dancer and Rodger's love interest AIDS victim (due to the use of drugs not sex). Tried to quit her drug addiction but failed to the disappointment of Rodger. Rodger- Musician (guitar), ex-user and AIDS victim (due to drugs/ ex-girlfriend not sleeping around) Benny-Ex- roommate of Rodger, Mark and Maureen, married into wealth. Maureen- Drama queen extraordinairem, Joanne's lover and (I believe she's bi)Mark's ex-girlfriend. Joanne- attorney. Lover of Maureen. Mark- Camera man/artist. Maureen's ex. Collins- Teaches at different colleges, AIDS victim. Angel's Lover. Angel- Musician (Drummer) kind and perky, likeable... had AIDS and died. Person who might be considered the "glue" that helped keep the group together. The following is actually sung... you should listen to it... it's much better than a post...
Mimi:It's true you sold your guitar and bought a car?
Roger:It's true - I'm leaving now for Santa Fe, It's true you're with this yuppie scum?Benny:You said you'd never speak to him again
Mimi:Not now
Maureen:Who said you that you have any say in who she says things to at all?
Roger:Yeah!
Joanne:Who said that you should stick your nose in other people's...
Maureen:Who said I was talking to you?
Joanne:we used to have this fight each night
Mark:Calm down
Joanne:She'd never admit I existed
Mark:Everyone please
Mimi:He was the same way - he was always "run away - hit the road don't commit" you're full of shit
Joanne:She's in denial
Mimi:He's in denial
Joanne:Didn't give an inch when i gave a mile
Mark:Come on
Mimi:I gave a mile
Roger:Gave a mile to who?
Mark & Benny:Come on guys chill!
Mimi & Joanne:I'd be happy to die for a taste of what Angel had someone to live for-unafraid to say i love you
Roger:All your words are nice Mimi but Love's not a three way street you'll never share real love until you love your self-I Should know
Collins:You all said you'd be cool today so please for my sake...I can't believe he's gone I can't believe your going I can't believe this family must die Angel helped us believe in love I can't believe you disagree
All:I can't believe this is good bye( Maureen and Joanne reconcile and go home. Collins returns to the funeral home. Mimi and Benny leave together. Roger and Mark are left alone.)
Mark:I hear there are great restaurants out west
Roger:Some of the best, how could she?
Mark:How could you let her go?
Roger:You just don't know...how could we lose Angel?
Mark:Maybe you'll see why when you stop escaping your pain at least now if you try Angel's death won't be in vain
Roger:His death is in vain
Mark:Are you insane? There's so much to care about there's me there's Mimi-
Roger:Mimi's got her baggage too
Mark:So do you
Roger:Who are you to tell me what I know. What to do
Mark:A friend
Roger:But who, Mark, are you? "Mark has got his work" they say "Mark lives for his work" and "Mark's in love with his work" Mark hides in his work
Mark:From what?
Roger:From facing your failure, facing your loneliness facing the fact you live a lie. yes, you live a lie tell you why you're always preaching not to be numb when that's how you thrive you pretend to create and observe when you really detach from feeling alive
Mark:Perhaps it's because I'm the one of us to survive
Roger:Poor baby
Mark:Mimi still loves you Are you really jealous or afraid that Mimi's weak
Roger:Mimi did look pale
Mark:Mimi's gotten thin Mimi's running out of time And you're running out the door--
Roger: No more! I've gotta go.
Mark:Hey! For someone who's always been let down who's heading out of town?
Roger:For someone who longs for a community of his own, who's with his camera, all alone?I'll call. I hate the fall.
(Mimi enters)You heard?
Mimi:Every word you don't want baggage without lifetime guarantees You don't want to watch me die?I just came to say goodbye love, goodbye love came to say goodbye love, goodbye just came to say
Roger: Glory
Mimi:goodbye love
Roger:One blaze of
Mimi:goodbye love
Roger:glory
Mimi:goodbye love goodbye
Roger: I have to find(Roger leaves Benny enters)
Mimi:please don't touch me understand I'm scared I need to go away
Mark:I know a place, a clinic
Benny:A rehab?
Mimi:Maybe could you?
Benny:I'll pay
Mimi:goodbye love goodbye love came to say goodbye love goodbye just came to say goodbye love goodbye love goodbye love goodbye love hello disease
(Mimi runs away, Collins is booted from the funeral Home when he can't pay the bill. Benny offers to pay; then he and Collins go drinking. Mark stays behind to prepare for his meeting with "Buzzline".)
Astral Romance
by Nightwish
Female Voice:
A nocturnal concerto
Candlelight whispers me where to go
Hymn of gathering stars as my guide
As I wander on this path of the night
Embroidery of the stars
Undress my feelings for this earth
Send me your salva to heal my scars
And let this nakedness me my birth
Macrocosm poured its powers on me
And the hopes of this world I now must leave
The nightwish I sent you centuries ago
Has been heard by those
Who dwelled in a woe
The distance of our bridal bed
Await for me to be dead
Dust of the galaxies take my hand
Lead me to my beloved's land
Male voice:
Departed by the guillotine of death
I received a letter from the depth
The dream of my lover it carried inside
Caressed by the sharpest knife
I asked you to be my wife
Rays of the setting sun
Were my tears wept upon promises undone
Male whispers:
Come to me
Make me believe
to you and your love again
Female voice:
Above the universe
Beneath the Great Eye
I shall desire you forevermore
I like this version... It really... I was going to say rock'n but that's too cheesy... I like it but it's kinda sad too...
I feel somewhat bothered as of late... I hate the fact that I'm pulled in so many directions. It's by my friends, my family, my mother espcially, the people at Tae Kwon Do and Belhaven. Don't misunderstand, I love my life and everything in it. I am madly in love, however, I would love for somethings to back off like, my mother's constand hovering, nagging and clucking over me like a chicken, (now's a time I'd love to have a sibbling or something so they'd bloody leave me alone.) the Tae Kwon Do center is trying to get me to work for them, which isn't a bad thing but it's ill timed... Belhaven tests are starting up (finally you have no idea how bored I've been on campus), and social callings are starting to pill up and I feel extremely obligated (0r wish to) be there for it, however school work is slightly problematic in this case and I actually want to do well this semester...
Once Upon A Troubadour
by Nightwish
A lonely bard wandering across the lands am I
Singing dancing finding answers to every why
The taverns are full and one crosses my path, too
I just might reward myself with a beer or two
This inn the place of many romantic tales
On the loft women offer their sales
But my eyes they catch a girl beat by everyone
A slave she is but for me a rose undone
Hear me sing
Watch me dance
Play that lute of thine
And share with me this dance
As she danced my eyes began to shine
There she was the maiden so divine
How could I approach her with my outlook so poor
Her beauty being much more than I could endure
So I asked if I could sing a chanson
With a language of ancient and of lore
Gathered the men around us me and the girl in rags
Soon were the melodies heard by everyone
Hear us sing
Watch us dance
Sing with us this tale
With a clap of hands
The stories long-forgotten we still know
Performing our skills wherever we go
I end my story as I receive a kiss
From my girl the dearest Beatrice
Hear us sing
Watch us dance
Sing with us the tales
Which the music will keep alive
This is about a bard and his travels... I think the lyrics are mostly self explanitory... and Beatrice might be a nod at Dante's Divine Comedy... which is a pretty good read. I guess I should say more but I don't feel like it, and I think that there is a certain virtue to being silent.
By Nightwish
A grand oasis in the vastness of gloom
Child of dew-spangled cobweb Mother to the moon
Constellations beholders of the 3rd vagrant
Theater for the play of life
Tragedienne of heavens
Watching the eyes of the night
Sailing the virgin oceans
A planetride for the Mother and Child
Floating upon the quiet hydrogen lakes
In this ambrosial merry-go-round they will gaze
Ephemereal life touched by a billion-year show
Separating the poet from the woe
Tragedienne of heavens...
Oracle of the Delphian Domine
Witness of Adam's frailty
Seer of the master prophecy
The stellar world her betrothed
Wanderers in cosmic caravan
Universal bond - The Starborn
A son in the search for the truth
Following the pages of Almagest
Discovering the origin of dreams
Stargazers ride through the ancient realms
Tragedienne of heavens...
This is Bryson favorite song (of Nightwish) but obviously not because of the lyrics... I don't think he's stupid just not well versed in mythology and some of these references I don't even get. Anyway another lyric for you to think on.
Sad Lisa
by Cat Stevens
She hangs her head and cries on my shirt.
She must be hurt very badly.
Tell me what's making you sad, Li?
Open your door, don't hide in the dark.
You're lost in the dark, you can trust me.
'Cause you know that's how it must be.
Lisa Lisa, sad Lisa Lisa.
Her eyes like windows, trickle in rain
Upon the pain getting deeper.
Though my love wants to relieve her.
She walks alone from wall to wall.
Lost in her hall, she can't hear me.
Though I know she likes to be near me.
Lisa Lisa, sad Lisa Lisa.
She sits in a corner by the door.
There must be more I can tell her.
If she really wants me to help her.
I'll do what I can to show her the way.
And maybe one day I will free her.
Though I know no one can see her.
Lisa Lisa, sad Lisa Lisa.
Amaranth
by Nightwish
Baptised with a perfect name
The doubting one by heart
Alone without himself
War between him and the day
Need someone to blame
In the end, little he can do alone
You believe but what you see
You receive but what you give
Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak
Apart from the wandering pack
In this brief flight of time we reach
For the ones, whoever dare
You believe but what you see
You receive but what you give
Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak
Reaching, searching for something untouched
Hearing voices of the Never-Fading calling
Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak
Today as you must know is August 31... I hate today. Hate the fact that August isn't over, why so long! I was looking forward to September 1st because nightmail would update and I could read it and all would be right in the world. I also hate today because I had to get up early to avoid bad traffic and arrive on time for my eight o'clock class (being a commutting student is hard on me) ... my next class isn't until one, and I am painfully bored. On the brightsdie (I don't wish to mope all day) I will meet Kateri for lunch and get to chat with her, the weekend is rapidly approaching which may mean more work but it also means that I'm closer to seeing all my friends again. Also, I put up lyrics and they vex me but they cheer me up so, I don't mind that I don't completely understand them yet...
Today was my first day of class at Belhaven. I arrived five minitues late for my first class... I wasn't scolded but it probably didn't leave a good first impression... I Civ. we are studying God as Creator, His Sovereignty, and his right to judge man kind. Okay, I've been in church all my life I shouldn't struggle with this should I right? Wrong. I struggle with a lot that has been taught and my mother believes me to be "secularized" (Whatever). All I really want is to see the evidence for myself and not just believe because my teacher put it on a sheet of paper, therefore I am looking this stuff up on the advised sites that my professor has given us to look at.... most of what I struggle with isn't that the theory of evolution is wrong but statements about natural selection. Originally, I did not agree with evolution I believe that there are too many flaws to the theory but natural selection I believed, to an extent, possible...
Upon looking up the mans arguements on one statement: Natural selection has severe logical inconsistencies. I found this a statement: If we all come from the same ancestor, we would all be murderers and cannibals by the simple act of killing a cow. I chuckled to myself and though "This man has a point and since God allows us to eat meat I suppose that we have no relation to him at all... His statement does make since." Imagine if people who subscribe to the theory of evolution came across this thought, would they in fact all become vegetarians? Probably not and theoretically that would make them murderers... an interesting point of view... Just a few thoughts from today; I have to go back to my homework. For more information on what I wrote about go to: http://emporium.turnpike.net/C/cs/top.htm
I'm rather excited today, I just found out Nightwish's new cd comes out this September right around my birthday! (not a hint for you but I dropped it on my parents.) I also found out that Tuomas Holopainen is the one who writes all the lyrics for Nightwish... I now kinda have a crush on him. His poetry's so beautiful... And my final news on Nightwish is that their new singer is Anette Olzon or Anette Blydkert (Blydkert is her last name by marriage) is the new singer for Nightwish and former singer of Alyson Avenue. Anyway here's the lyrics from a new Nightwish song, in this song both Marco and Tuomas sing... it's quite wonderful... I can't wait till the new album comes out!
While Your Lips Are Still Red
Nightwish
Sweet little words make the silence
Not so young, heartfelt love not heartache
Dark hair fall, catch in the wind
Light the way, the sight of a cold world
Kiss,
While your lips are still red
While he's still in silent rest
While bosom is still untouched
Unveiled on another hair
While the hand's still without a tool
Drown into eyes while they're still blind
Love while the night still hides the withering dawn
Kiss,
While your lips are still red
While he's still in silent rest
While bosom is still untouched
Unveiled on another hair
While the hand's still without a tool
Drown into eyes while they're still blind
Love while the night still hides the withering dawn
First day of love never comes back
Compassion, its power's never are wasted wrong
The violin, the poet's hand
Every thawing heart plays your theme with care
Yeah, this poem is actually mine... it's not the best but I don't think it's too bad since I just threw it together.
People's eyes are tinted
Unreadable
Until a single word sparks an interest
Then a wildfire of conversation erupts
But the conversation fades to dying embers
What else is there to say to a stranger?
And we retreat behind oure walls
Behind our silence
yeah its pretty rough and honestly I find it quiet lacking... ah, well.
End of All Hope
By Nightwish
It is the end of all hope
To lose the child, the faith
To end all the innocence
To be someone like me
This is the birth of all hope
To have what I once had
This life unforgiven
It will end with a birth
No will to wake for this morn
To see another black rose born
Deathbed is slowly covered with snow
Angels, they fell first but I'm still here
Alone as they are drawing near
In heaven my masterpiece will finally be sung
It is the end of all hope
To lose the child, the faith
To end all the innocence
To be someone like me
Wounded is the deer that leaps highest
And my wound it cuts so deep
Turn off the light and let me pull the plug
It is the end of all hope
To lose the child, the faith
To end all the innocence
To be someone like me
This is the birth of all hope
To have what I once had
This life unforgiven
It will end with a birth
Mandylion, without a face
Deathwish without a prayer
End of hope
End of love
End of time, the rest is silence
Mandylion, without a face
Deathwish without a prayer
End of hope
End of love
End of time, the rest is silence
It is the end of all hope
To lose the child, the faith
To end all the innocence
To be someone like me
This is the birth of all hope
To have what I once had
It is the end of all hope
To lose the child, the faith
To end all the innocence
To be someone like me
It is the end of all hope
To lose the child, the faith
End of all hope
Sadly enough, this song fits rather well right now... I know, I know cheer up emo kid but... I know God's forgiven me but I can't forgive myself right now....
Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high
heave ho, thieves And beggars,
never shall we die
The king and his men stole the queen
From her bed and bound her in her Bones
The seas be ours and by the powers
Where we will we'll roam
Yo, ho, haul together, hoist the Colors high
heave ho, thieves And beggars,
never say we die.
Some men have died and some are alive
And others sail on the sea with He
keys to the cage and the Devil to pay we lay to Fiddler's Green!
The bell has been raised from it's watery grave...
do you hear it's sepulchral tone?
We are A call to all,
pay heed the squall and turn your sail toward home!
Yo ho, haul together
Raise the colors high!
Heave ho thieves and beggars,
never say we die.
I want to be a pirate...
I'm a bit happier now. It came about to be a misunderstanding and in the end we were both happy just to hang out again.
Okay, new post and this time it's probably going to be a bit... emo. It seems I may have done something wrong but don't know what, and I don't know how to fix what I did. You see whenever I do something wrong... I have to fix it otherwise who else will make things better... I feel my hands are tied and all I can do is wait...
PS: Watch Kamelot's Epica video at the bottom it made me happy this morning.
