So, I'm currently busy (or at least I'm suppose to be) researching random bits for Anitative Bib... but I thought that I'd take some time to distract myself with blogging. For those of you who still read this: greetings.
So blogging is generally talking about yourself and toughts, feelings and maybe some issue that you find important... It seems that I don't have much to say about any of those...
On a random note... I'm at a point with God that I have to say 'Who are you?' even though it really feels like I've been screaming this on the inside for sometime... after I ran off and did my own thing (of course) then came crawling back, weeping and asking 'why do I hurt so bad?' I know that really I kinda did it to myself, but I think it couldn't be helped and that I had to go through that pain to realize things about myself and others for that matter... I suppose that I walked away from the whole break up ordeal a bit wiser... it sounds kind of lame saying that but I did realize a lot of things about myself and in retrospect... I realize that my relational skills need improving... and I'm still learning. One thing that I'm afraid is that I'll never feel the same again... but I guess it can't be helped and that I'll have to bare my teeth and deal with it, it's just part of life, yeah? I guess now I'm really searching for what I should do in life and I find satisfaction in my classes even if it is strange. I'm not sure where that leaves me and God... I suppose that I'm looking for WHO he is now because... I wanna know.
Well sorry for the totally rambling post. I know it was probably difficult to follow that train of random thought... Well later.
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