So, one thing that I've noticed about myself lately that's starting to bother me is...I'm sarcastic. I've always known that I've been that way and it hasn't ever bothered me until rescently. I find myself returning sarcasm with people who don't really deserve it; a lot of my remarks are very bitting. And if someone says something sarcastic I can't help but retort. I can't just laugh it off or anything... it really just feels like I just can't shut my mouth.
On another note. I started to make a list of some of my favorite movies in my head and though they don't really have an order the following are definately in my top ten:
Kill Bill vol. 1
Kill Bill vol. 2
Role Models (very funny by the way)
Fight Club
Howl's Moving Castle
Slum Dog Milloinare
...It's not finished. Heh, heh. A list of songs I currently listen to on a regular basis
You're Not Sorry-Taylor Swift (CSI Mix)
Nowhere Warm-Kate Havnevik
I Don't Know You-Kate Havnevik
Quicksand-Natalie Walker
Misery Business-Sea of Treachery v. Paramore
Astral Romance-Nightwish (of course)
So, I don't know about you guys but my spring break just wasn't long enough...though I am glad for the much needed break. It would seem that I have spring fever and don't wish to deal with the stress of certain classes, but somehow I do. Lately I've been much happier and glad to say so... It seems that the warm weather has braught all this relief with it.
I wish I knew what I really wanted to say.
For the past year I've been struggling with myself... I was lost in some sort of haze and couldn't find my way out but now it seems that I'm much better... Hopefully I won't hit another circumstance like for in while...
I got a new book yesterday. It made me pretty happy...however, buying books is sometimes is forbidden. You see I have been badly upbraided by mother about buying them as they are, sometime, a "waste of money" I however disagree and occasionally rebel and buy a novel or book of poetry.
On another note I can't wait till summer. I want to go to the beach, an amusement park, a consert; have an adventure, ANYTHING would be good I'm certain. But I have to work, but hopefully I can find away. I'm really looking forward to swimming this year; I need a new swimsuit though... Ah, this summer just won't be the same without going to Starbucks...curse them for shutting it down but I guess places like Cups and Fusion are just as good.
Well I suppose I should stop rambling...see ya!
So, I'm currently busy (or at least I'm suppose to be) researching random bits for Anitative Bib... but I thought that I'd take some time to distract myself with blogging. For those of you who still read this: greetings.
So blogging is generally talking about yourself and toughts, feelings and maybe some issue that you find important... It seems that I don't have much to say about any of those...
On a random note... I'm at a point with God that I have to say 'Who are you?' even though it really feels like I've been screaming this on the inside for sometime... after I ran off and did my own thing (of course) then came crawling back, weeping and asking 'why do I hurt so bad?' I know that really I kinda did it to myself, but I think it couldn't be helped and that I had to go through that pain to realize things about myself and others for that matter... I suppose that I walked away from the whole break up ordeal a bit wiser... it sounds kind of lame saying that but I did realize a lot of things about myself and in retrospect... I realize that my relational skills need improving... and I'm still learning. One thing that I'm afraid is that I'll never feel the same again... but I guess it can't be helped and that I'll have to bare my teeth and deal with it, it's just part of life, yeah? I guess now I'm really searching for what I should do in life and I find satisfaction in my classes even if it is strange. I'm not sure where that leaves me and God... I suppose that I'm looking for WHO he is now because... I wanna know.
Well sorry for the totally rambling post. I know it was probably difficult to follow that train of random thought... Well later.
